In the past couple of days the internet is flooded with news about the tragic suicide of Pastor Rick Warren’s son. No matter who the person is or what family that person came from news of someone taking their own life is possibly the worst news a person can hear. I have personally known of a few young people who felt their was no hope and the only way to end their misery was to take their own life. Each one hurts equally bad. You always wish you could have been there to stop it but you weren’t. Why did it have to happen? What could possibly be in a person’s life that would cause them to such an extreme end?
I too dealt with the type of feelings in my own life many years ago. I was young 18 year old who had his whole life ahead of him. It was around Christmas time and I got really upset over something that happened. Feelings of despair and worthlessness had been building in me for awhile. I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus to help me and I really felt alone, desperately alone. What caused the feeling isn’t really important but how I almost dealt with the feeling is. I took out of the house and got into the car. I decided I was going to end my pain by driving as fast as I could by running my car into the nearest pole without a seat belt on. I know, brilliant. I got the car running as fast as I could but when I was about ready to point it at the pole, I felt something tell me not to do it. So I didn’t, thankfully this one time in my life I listened and stopped.
Now that I am older I think back to all of the things I would have missed and all of the lives that would be different if I hadn’t listened. I would not have met my wife, had beautiful girls, moved to Colorado, climbed a mountain, traveled the world, met my in laws. But the biggest thing is I would not have known my savior, Jesus Christ and I would have spent my eternity separated from him. Thank you Lord for saving me from my own pain and despair!
It’s interesting to note that their are several suicides recorded in the Bible:
Abimelech (Judges 9:54) – Dying of a skull fracture during a siege ordered his armor-bearer to kill him.
Samson (Judges 16:26-31) – Killed himself to gain revenge against the Philistines.
Saul (1Samuel 31:3-6) – Wounded and defeated in the battle with the Philistines, asked his armor-bear to kill him. When he refused, Saul fell on his own sword. The armor-bearer did likewise.
Ahithophel (2Samuel 17:1,23) – Plotted to overthrow David by advising Absalom, David’s rebellious son, to kill David. When his plan failed, he hanged himself.
Zimri (1 Kings 16:18) – Tried to take over the throne of Israel and when he failed, he burned down the palace around himself.
Judas Iscariot (Matthew 27:4-5) – Hung himself after betraying Jesus.
Despair and depression can happen to anyone. Others have shared these feelings, even great people in the Bible have had these thoughts:
He (Elijah) came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, LORD,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep. 1 Kings 19:4-5
For when we came into Macedonia, we had no rest, but we were harassed at every turn-conflicts on the outside, fears within. But God, who comforts the downcast, comforted us by the coming of Titus, and not only by his coming but also by the comfort you had given him. 2 Corinthians 7:5-7
If you are having feeling of anxiety, despair, hopelessness, depression coupled with suicidal thoughts, GET HELP. Call Someone and remember these things:
- You are not alone. God is with you. You are precious to Him, even when you do not feel that is true.
Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me. Revelation 3:20
For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39
And I will make you to this people a fortified wall of bronze; they will fight against you, but they shall not prevail over you, for I am with you to save you and deliver you, declares the Lord. Jeremiah 15:20
I am the door. If anyone enters by me, he will be saved and will go in and out and find pasture. John 10:9
- If you do not have a relationship with God or have not pursued your relationship with Him for awhile, start one! We fight an enemy who wants to see us fail, but God will help us win! Believe and trust God and His promises to you.
Genesis 22:1-19 – Abraham and Isaac. Is there a more difficult task we could be asked to trust God with?
God is not a man, so he does not lie. He is not human, so he does not change his mind. Has he ever spoken and failed to act? Has he ever promised and not carried it through? Numbers 23:19
- These thoughts and feelings are not of God. We battle against an enemy who wants us to believe God doesn’t care. We know He does!
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8
These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world. John 16:33
Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
Do not be afraid of them; the LORD your God himself will fight for you. Deuteronomy 3:22
- Pray for strength and the ability to overcome these feelings
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. Psalm 18:6
Those of us who dealt with these are not alone, even when the enemy of life tells us differently. God does care and he love us more than we can possibly know.